Bits Of Life, JULIA ❤

Happy CNY, Dragon Year 2012.

2012-01-30T03:49:00.005+08:00

Sky lounge

Kuan's house

Vivian's house

Just a short update after so long of laziness for not updating my blog :P

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE ;)

November, holiday started :)

2011-11-23T23:19:00.004+08:00

Sorry for not blogging for months. Haha too lazy to blog. And i have to study for finals and hardcore assignments :) Too hardworking :P

Finals just ended few days back. Coming saturday its my birthday :) maybe i'll update with my birthday's post soon :)

Btw, i think i've gained a lot weight :D

Holiday started, i wanna find something to do :) Don't wanna go back ipoh! Sure gain more weight! Lol.

Happy birthday Silver ❤

2011-09-03T23:10:00.011+08:00

Kinda long didnt update my blog. Time to update a lil. Damn lazy la :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SILVER! :D

Wishing you all the best ahead in your future and dreams come true.
Study hard, study smart ;)

Happy birthday dear :)

Polaroid.

Birthday cakes.

Group picture.

Similar with the one above thou. Hehe

Celebrated her bday in The Heritage @ Seri Kembangan. We stayed one night. In the evening, they were playing water sports. A big NO for me, i just sit there and look at them playing. Luckily i didnt play cause their body aching after that. Pity them but they enjoyed. I'm PHOBIA! Lol.

Happy birthday again ;)

Happy birthday Chee Leong

2011-07-09T00:31:00.006+08:00

Went Mist last friday to celebrate Chee Leong's birthday. The so-called birthday celebration for him doesnt seems like to celebrate his birthday, its just like a friends gathering night. All having fun themselves -.-

Another night was before his birthday, on the 4th of July we went Desa Park City :) It was at least better than Mist. Bought him macaroons which he never tried before. Lol. Simply meaningful enough and cheaper than club.

Pictures ~
First night, 1/7/11 @ Mist

The birthday boy

Kimmy

Xian

Henry

Alvin

2 jie

The other night, 4/7/11 @ Desa Park City

Vivian and Kim

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEE LEONG :)
May your wishes come true!

Sugar & Fluffie

2011-06-24T02:58:00.006+08:00

This is fluffie on my keyboard.

Thats yuki and fluffie.

I named this sugar :)

Sleeping with her legs grabbing my shirt.

Fluffie went missing :((( I've no idea where is it. Be good, come out. I bought Sugar few days ago. Its kinda scary when it screams.

Thank you!

2011-06-03T02:56:00.002+08:00

TQ so so much!

I hate my life.

2011-06-01T05:25:00.004+08:00

I'm starting to hate my life. I dont know why. I feel like everything around me has problem, everyone around me its like changing, even myself. GETTING WORSE.

I hate my life. I HATE MY LIFE.

我很想放弃挽救任何东西. 我很想有你在我身边, 听我讲话. 就很足够了, 不需多. 我很想有一样东西可以让我依靠. 一个可以放下我自己的空间. 一个地方可以让我躲起来. 可以吗?

简单的说, 我想过着一个我想过的日子.

Whenever i'm on my bed, before i can fall asleep, i'll be thinking for at least half an hour. My sleeping time is very very abnormal now i know.

I dont know what to say. Its 5.35am. Goodnight.

Happy birthday Xian!

2011-05-25T01:11:00.012+08:00

My line is fast today, so i posted quite a lot of pictures. Haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAN!

Dai gor zai la. His 19th birthday on 21/05/11. We celebrated his birthday on the 20th in Eastin hotel, suite room 1721.

Before the party we had dinner in err i forgot the name of the shop but its in aman suria.

Henry, chee leong and alvin.

Hei and xian

Me :) lol

Eastin hotel. Kim, me and cl.

Thats su lyn.

A lucky guy? :D And also birthday boy.

Do i look like a ghost? Haha

The liquor!

His birthday cake with some additional flavour! Haha

Cake session at 12am sharp

Kaki lang, mostly from ipoh except alvin from penang. I like this.

So happy?

Too excited? Cant wait to use? Hahaha

Burst it if you can. Hahahaha

Promoting durex.

The mess of the game

Fenn peng and her boyf

Hope you enjoyed on that day. And quite a lot people KO including me. So sorry to cause trouble and thanks a lot a lot to people who took care of me and others. But no more liquor please. That is scary. I cant even drive the day after. I stayed for another day to rest and recover only back to ipoh.

Btw, yuki is back home the day after the party! :DDD Thank god.

Welcome home yuki

2011-05-24T03:13:00.007+08:00

My baby girl is back! :DDD
WELCOME HOME BABY GIRL!

Sorry for late post. Hehe. I got no time to update. I went down to kl to celebrate a friend's birthday. Will post it up soon. :)

Here goes some picture of her :)

Tired?

A doggie family :) Golden retriever, 2 doberman and german shepherd. That's my aunty btw.

I lost her for few days, i feel like dying. Worse than anything else missing even human. Hmm. I miss her badly until i cant sleep, i cant eat, only thinking where will she be. And now she's back :D A lady took her home. Hmm.

Mum told me, when she's back home, the first thing was she ran up to my room and look for me, but too bad i wasnt at home, i was in kl. She cant see me in my room, she peep in my bro's room and parents' room. At night she went up to look for me again but i wasnt home yet. How lovely!

After the party, i drove back alone to ipoh. When i open the gate i saw her, like FINALLY! I got down from my car, she keep jumping on me, licking me and running around me. I know you're happy girl :) I love you baby girl. She's next to me now sleeping :)

I took this opportunity to take few more pictures to keep if *touch wood* anything happens again.

Appreciate everything around you before you lost it and regret for it.

Worst day ever in 19years life :'(

2011-05-18T03:03:00.010+08:00

I lost my baby girl on the 16th of May. Her name is Yuki. She's a golden retriever. She's very very friendly, she wont bite. She's now 4 years old+ already.

Anyone found her please contact me thru facebook or twitter :'( PLEASE PLEASE. http://www.facebook.com/julia.b.17
http://twitter.com/juliaaleonggg

I lost her in Ipoh Jaya area, near to Ampang, near to Ampang Oldtown and Maybank. She might run to nearby housing area too.

She was just 2months+

She usually sleeps with me.

She's sleeping comfortably. I bet she must be suffering outside now :(

Eating rambutan when i was eating.

I am very very worried about her. Anyone staying nearby, help please :(

Congratulations, Terry & Valerie!!!

2011-05-09T03:36:00.009+08:00

I attended a wedding dinner @ tower regency for 2gor, agnes's brother and also my half side brother, and shi mun jie jie :) It was memorable although it was very hooooooooot that night. So sweet of them, and wish them lovely forever :) Bak tao dou lou, yan yan oi oi :)

Them them! I zoomed in so its blur.

I like this pict cause i look slim! Haha

Us us :D

With baby G, Gisele.

I love her!

Pretty mummy, pretty daughter! Daddy not in. Hehe

Yvonne

Shi mun jie jie and 2gor.

Aunty and uncle

About to leave that time.

My polaroid pictures :D

Me like thissss!

This one too of course.

Lastly, CONGRATULATIONS again!!!

Happy birthday love, Shan.

2011-05-05T02:06:00.005+08:00

Dedicated to SHAN :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you.
I love you.
Have a great one in Singapore.
I miss you. Xoxo.

Pictures was quite long ago. Hahahahahaha. Funny look. We changed as time goes by, we improved as time moving fast. Its memories. Money cant buy memories, money cant buy time. Money cant buy friendship like us.

Guinea guinea pig

2011-05-05T01:54:00.006+08:00

I bought a guinea pig today that i wanted for quite long ago. I'm afraid i got no time to take care of it and mum doesnt want me to have one, so all the while i didnt buy.

Until today my aunt called and asked me to help her to buy some dog food. I went to the pet shop and i saw sooooooo many guinea pigs and hamsters. Shoooooooooo cute. Hahaha. I was thinking hamster or guinea pig? I used to have hamsters, so now i'll try guinea pig. So i decided to buy one :D A new member to my family :)

I guess its a male.

He was climbing all around me. Lol

I was feeding him with banana. Haha

I brought him out! Haha. I put him inside a make-up pouch. Lol

Its soooooooooo cute. Hahaha. Yuki must be so jealous of him. When she saw me holding it, she'll keep barking. Haha. Its a male. What name should i name it? :)

I'll bring down to kl when i start my studies again. At least something there to accompany me, and also i can put some time on him instead of other stuff. I can talk to him thou :P I love him :D

Singapore 29.4 - 1.5.11

2011-05-05T01:26:00.010+08:00

Pictures randomly chosen. So i'll just describe the shown pictures :)

Was at Changi Airport about to leave.

We had dinner at Harry's @ Clarke Quay.

This is a suite. We're actually supposed to get a normal superior room. But the time when we check in, the only room left wasnt ready yet so they upgraded us to suite :) 701.

I finally found that lil creature in Sg and also the bag. I bought both :D

Taking the bus :)

Hevi and me. Outside Ion Orchard.

I pierced my belly in Sg :DDD Hahaha. It was pain, but bearable. Lol. 29.4.11

Shany shany :)

Our feet hurts like mad. Especially mine :( soaking in the bathtub with hot hot water. We walked from 11am until 3am. More than 12 hours okay, and i was wearing slippers only.

Polaroid :D

Busy with it.

Hotel lift. Hahaha

Walking to the MRT station @ Novena

Resting on the bed :)

Singapore trip was good except the walking part. Hahaha. Seriously, both my leg hurts like mad :( I get to know a new friend, Hevi :) I spent quite a lot, shopping is love :D Hahaha. I miss the moment when we're together, JAS. Stands for Julia Agnes Shan. I wish to go for another trip soon.

In this trip i've learned how to take bus and mrt. Lol. Haha. Dont laugh okay. But i'll still prefer to have a car. Haha. Anyway, I ENJOYED THE TRIP :D

明知道

2011-04-27T01:28:00.003+08:00

有些事，明知是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；
有些人，明知是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没结局；
有时候，明知没路了，却还在前行，因为习惯了。

Singapore in a week

2011-04-22T17:01:00.004+08:00

A week more to Singapore :) I cant wait to go. I cant wait to leave here, leave M'sia.

I really dont like to stay in ipoh. Idk why, i just cant stop thinking and thinking. I'm so depressed when i was in ipoh until last sunday i decided to go down to KL.

Yea i went down for few days. I feel much much more better than staying in ipoh. And now i'm going singapore in a week time :) I should be happy :) I'm back in ipoh now.

Every time when i face problem, i will never stand out and face it, i realize i always run away from it. But whatever la. I dont wanna think now. I dont wanna know anything about you. I wanna leave, i dont wanna bring anything here to singapore. Thats it.

Dont annoy me, dont have to tell me anything. Not a single piece of shit. If i can, i dont even wanna see you.

Leave me and go away :)

思念比死还难受.

2011-04-10T04:01:00.008+08:00

思念一个人, 你试过吗?
当你想念一个人, 真的真的很想, 可是却不敢找他, 不敢见他. 痛.

I miss everything of you. But i cant do anything for it. All i can do, should do, is just to let go. And yes, i am going to. I dont know what to say anymore.

我很想去保留这年来的感情. 但是一只手掌拍不响, 挽留不了就别勉强了. 不如放弃吧.

Happy birthday baby agnes!

2011-03-28T23:15:00.007+08:00

45 minutes more its my baby Agnes's birthday according to malaysia time.
29/03/2011

I would like to wish you a very very
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
even though i cant celebrate with you because you're in aussie now. Haha.

Aussie time is faster than m'sia time for 2 hours.
So its kinda hard to be remembered. Sorry baby that i wished you late.

Birthday present on our 'honey moon' singapore trip okay. Haha.

See you soon. Xoxo. Imissyou.

Sorry

2011-03-23T23:55:00.005+08:00

LEAVE ME!!!

I'm sorry.

痛在心里, 没人知道. 只有我知道感觉到.

Happy birthday vivian!

2011-03-14T01:32:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ANOTHER BABY, VIVIAN!

And a friend, Desmond.

I hope you enjoyed the party Vivian. But we took care of you the whole night! Lol.

Take care of yourself next time. Okay? We cant be there for you 24/7.
You have to take care of yourself.

Vivian in the middle :)

Her birthday cupcakes. Sooooooo cute.

The party people!

你懂吗?

2011-02-28T21:47:00.014+08:00

明明不快乐，还要笑嘻嘻着。

自己内心所受的伤、别人永远也无法懂。

我不喜欢别人把我看的脆弱，也不喜欢别人以为我很不快乐。

即使自己表面露得多坚强、笑的多开朗，装做多不在乎。但是在夜里、自己却掉下了多少眼泪。

爱一个人不一定要拥有他，但拥有一个人一定要去好好爱他。

当不能拥有时，唯一能做的就是，令自己忘掉所拥有过的一切。

不属于自己的 ; 就忘掉吧。

原以为我可以静静的，把你忘了。怎知道，看见了你，才知道
我做不到。

人是会变的，守住一个不变的承诺却，守不住一颗善变的心。

也许无言才是最好的安慰，也许回忆是最好的结局。

Imy still

2011-02-25T01:46:00.011+08:00

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

Yes, YOU'RE THE ONE.
but suen la. Its over. Its over already.

有时我真的不明白, 明知过去了但是还是放不了手 :(

我想快点忘记一切.
但是当你越想忘记, 却越会去想.

见到你令我想起一切, 舍不得忘记.
但是记挂又如何.
伤害自己, 令他难做, 更伤害到她.
我不想.

我尝试用另一个角度去看待, 其实不是那么难受.
应该, 可能会比以前更好 :)

还是,
顺其自然.
不需要去强求.
是你的就会是你的, 不是你的勉强是不会有幸福.

Anyhow, sorry to say,
i still miss you.

Polaroid :D

2011-02-19T19:04:00.006+08:00

Fujifilm Polaroid instant camera :D

Thank you for the camera! :DDD

But i still dont really know how to use. Garfield supposed to be in the middle when i take but idk why it comes out like that. Lol.

I wanted to buy last time but i didnt buy at the end. Now i got it as my birthday present although its kinda late? After almost 3 months. Lol. But its okay :) I LOVE IT :DDD

Happy birthday kim kim

2011-02-15T04:53:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF MY BABIES, KIMBERLY!

I LOVE YOU BABY :D

Wish you all the best in everything, and remember i love you all the while.

Stay strong no matter what happen, we'll always be with you :)

Study hard, and play hard toooo ;)

Happy CNY :D

2011-02-07T01:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! THE YEAR OF RABBIT!
Wishing everyone having a good year ahead and good luck.

I'm lazy to blog btw. No time and internet damn slow. I'll update very very soon :)

TBF ending :(

2011-01-26T16:48:00.039+08:00

Its the last paper for finals tmrw. I have my first paper on tuesday which was English. Was okok la. Hehe. Tmrw is the last, or the second, cause i only have 2 subjects, Business Statistics. Lol. Hopefully i wont mess up all the formulas and calculations. Good luck to me please :)

After exam i'm free! SO FREE! Until July intake for degree. Yes i am taking july instead of february. I dont wanna study again so soon. Stress la seriously.

In that 6 months time, i will work most probably or take up some course, maybe make up? or dancing? :) I'll see how. Lazy to go for course thou. Most probably gonna work. As a kindergarden teacher? Nehh i dont think so. Maybe like a babysitter. Take care of kids in the kindergarden. I'll go ask in kinderland or kinderjoy after CNY :)

Woooo CNY :D Have you bought chinese new year's clothes? For me, i did. Lol. I didnt buy a lot i guess. But i spent so much. Super over budget this month. Haha. Actually i bought quite a lot. I bought bag, shoes, dresses, pants, shorts. Nothing to buy anymore. But i feel like going to shop again :DDD

Btw, after final exam, TBF will go to an end :( Goodbye to my sooooo lovely and friendly classmates that we have been thru the same thing for a year. I'll miss you guys. Keep in touch okay. And there's a last outing for us, this thursday. We're going to MOS :D Hopefully is on :)

I'll go back ipoh on saturday and wont be coming back to subang so often. Maybe once in every 2 months? I'll see how. I wont be staying in Pangsapuri ss15 anymore. I'm not renting anymore. Hmm.

I'll miss the moment in the house with so many of my friends before. Friends from ipoh, so many like Kim, Vivian, Chee Leong, Xian, Henry and especially Kah Hei. We always go out for dinner together. We spent time together. We go everywhere together. We laugh together. We cry together. We argue together. We have been to so many places, Mcd, Desa Park, Pyramid, Pavilion, Avilla, Darus, AC, ss14 Bak Kut Teh, Chee Leong's house, One U, Mid Valley, Ikea, a lot more which i dont remember. Hehe.

Mcd moment :)

Ralph Lauren fitting room in Gardens? Lol.

Bimba & Lola, Pavilion

Mcd.

And mcd again :)

But i'll see you guys again in ipoh :D

Friend over here like Shuba, Reena, DK, Ashraff, Mabel, Farris, 3.3 classmates like Mandy, Peek Chin, both James, Xin Li, Ye Yang, William, and so on so on. Brandon, Veshinu, Pravin, CK, Ridza, from taylors different course and who else? I cant remember so much >.< pan mee together, used to go bubble te together, share our problems, heart-to-heart talk, some to my apartment to hang out, play cards, lying on the bed gossiping, DK's house maggie session, cook together. In the class, we do presentation together, exam together, we ask each other if we're having problems and they're willing to help, and the most memorable with 3.3 was the BBQ party in Mandy and James's place, YED, Backofen in taylors, and maybe there's still others i couldnt recall.

3.THE BEST!

The awesome 7 :DDD

5 girls of the 7 :)

2 guys of the 7 :)

Thank to everyone for everything. 2010 was damn fast, which i dont feel like its 1 year already. Happy moment pass too fast. Goodluck for people who's sitting for the exam tmrw.

CNY is just around the corner. I got a lot of stuff to do >.< My dearest bb is in aussie. She'll be having exam on CNY :( HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR in advance. I'm waiting for you to come back from aussie :) If i'm working that time, i'll take leave for you and hang out with you :D

TBF ended by the time you guys read this. All the best in our future no matter what course are we in and keep in touch. I'll miss y'all :)

Congrats ;)

2011-01-16T04:01:00.005+08:00

CONGRATULATION to Keat & Clara.
Love last forever. Xoxo.

Cant wait to see a baby ;)

Heartbreaking quotes?

2011-01-12T02:59:00.013+08:00

Sometimes the memories are worth the pain. And so our memories love.

I'm giving reasons for myself to forgive you even though i'm hurt.

While I was holding on, all you did was let go. Aren't you?

My heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it is in pieces because of you. But its still all you.

You're the one who broke my heart, the reason my world fell apart, the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.

Sad isn't it? How no matter what you do or say to me, when you come running back, when you need me again, I'll be here. Right here waiting for you. I'll take you back, no questions asked. Sad isn't it?

You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing. When you turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself, everything is.

Its really painful to say goodbye to someone that you dont want to let go but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.

Make me stay. Say something sweet, tender and untrue and make me stay. I just wanna be with you.

I'm holding on something that used to be there hoping it will come knowing it wont.

I'm going to pretend like nothing happen if you come to me. I can forget everything.

Heartbreaking enough? I really dont like to see you to be sad and emo. I'm worried about you. I'm worried! But i cant do anything. I wish i was there with you. You made me cry of worrying about you.

Goodnight love. Dont think so much please. I dont like it when you think :(

3.3 BBQ

2011-01-08T16:14:00.015+08:00

We had our class party :D It was awesome :D I miss it. When's next? :P I'll upload part of the pictures :)

Arsenal couple. Ashraff never give me a proper look whenever i take pict so yea, look at his face. Hah!

Brunei couple :)

BBQ-ing marshmallow? His style of eating marshmallow maybe. Haha.

Image spoilt. Hahah. Who cares? :P

Lovey dovey. Haha.

Karaoke session.

Wine session! It was awesome. :)))

The group picture! 3.3! :D

I love TBF cause i have such good classmates with me :) Everyone will be going apart after TBF :( Can we still keep contact please? :(

Happy b'day to Kuan and Kit Mun

2011-01-06T01:01:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUAN KUAN :D
You're officially 19 years old, not 18 anymore.

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to KIT MUN toooo :)
Same to you, you both are officially 19.

Wish you both good year ahead, all the best in everything :)

Welcome 2011

2011-01-01T23:55:00.007+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!!!

Celebrated new year's eve at Barroom and Lush. Barroom with silver, carmen, yan and so on. Lush with vivian, kim, ning, ccc, shing and so on.

Barroom. Carmen, silver and me.

Tien

Peggy

Carmen

Lush. Vivian and me.

Kim

The guys.

Welcome to year 2011 and ALL THE BEST to everyone!

Merry christmas :D

2010-12-28T00:28:00.009+08:00

Christmas eve dinner @ SSTC, 2rd went to Secret Garden after that. After Secret Garden went to Airport to meet my bro for a while. Kinda boring so i left. Lastly, Barroom with shan.

Merry christmas :D

SSTC

Secret Garden

A gift from friend :)

I like this :)

The girls.

I didnt take any picture in Airport. Hehe.

Barroom

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! :D
And welcome 2011.

1217

2010-12-18T00:17:00.022+08:00

Its 1217. Yea 1217. So fast right. Haih..

你过得好辛苦, 我比谁都清楚, 感情路没有勉强的幸福, 一开始就给得糊里糊涂, 想回头却又不知如何结束. 你装作很满足, 我比谁都清楚, 你的笑隐约透露着孤独, 快乐背后深深藏着痛苦, 坚强的面对然后偷偷的哭.

人与人之间是不是一定存有不能说的秘密? 由其是想说却不能说, 就只能收在心里.

可怜我走不进你的世界, 可怜我得不到你的永远, 可怜我心碎了不只千遍, 你没感觉,这份爱怎么断了线?

有时想到很心痛。。但不能说出口。。

能吗?可以吗?

我感觉到你. 你感觉到吗?

眼睁睁, 却无法出声. 其实我知道, 真的知道, 却开不了口.

我懂了我懂了. 其实我是真的懂了吗?

越爱越难过.

心虽然很痛, 但是没把痛说出口.

哭过就好了.

别再为她流泪, 可以吗?

接受现实, 可以吗?

一廂情愿, 不对吗? 告诉我是错的!

第一次是失望，第二次就会是绝望.

我快要崩溃了.

我想太多.

你开心就好.

对不起, 我还是想念你.

Believe more in what you SEE and what you FEEL rather than what they say.

People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end.

Don't worry, if it's supposed to happen... it will. Maybe not now, but eventually.

Sometimes no matter how you want things to happen, all you can do is WAIT. Be Patient!

When someone loves you, they don't really have to say it... you can tell by the way they TREAT you.

Some people believe that holding on is a sign of great strength. However, there are times when it takes far more strength just to let go.

Letting go doesn't mean stop loving. It means that u allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back.

It's easy to forgive the mistakes from others. But it's hard to rebuild the trust that had been destroyed.

There are many things in life that will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart. Pursue those!

Stupid conversation makes sense when you're talking to someone special... that's Love.

Stop assuming, accusing, criticizing, and judging. Especially when you know NOTHING.

Never push a relationship with a person too hard. . . If it's meant to be, it'll happen!

Goodnight.

p/s: even the time is 1217.

Happy bday Brandon :)

2010-12-15T18:41:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to BRANDON!

You're legal now :)
Officially 18.
Enjoy party tonight :D

5th of dec

2010-12-05T02:00:00.004+08:00

I didnt update my blog after my birthday. I think nothing special the past week so yea :) I'm lazy to think, i dont wanna update emo post :)

I'm off to bali for 6days :) I'll be back on 10th dec. I will upload a lot a lot of pictures :D

Goodnight people, imy love.

Happy birthday JULIA :D

2010-11-26T02:49:00.020+08:00

Yay its my birthday today :D I got no plans, only dinner at night. Hehe. Woke up in the afternoon around 3pm. Lol. Lifeless la nothing to do so sleep only la :P

Dinner @ brewster. Not that good. Indulgence is much more better! Lol. Hmm. Nothing much to tell. I'd prefer to keep it to myself. Privacy.

I almost cant remember how it feels like, but i felt it again, it feels great :)

Btw, i found some interesting phrases :)

你以为最酸的感觉莫过于吃醋，不是的，最酸的感觉是你无权吃醋. <- I like this :)

The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, loving someone else.

I want you to know, but i dont wanna tell.

Something is better to be left unspoken. <- This is true.

There are some others, but i cant rmb em now. Hee :)

Goodnight people, goodnight mostlove.

Advance birthday to myself :)

2010-11-25T01:39:00.005+08:00

Erm. Its now 1.40am. Considered today as 25th of November. ONE more day or less than 24hours to be. Its my birthday. I wanna wish myself
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
in advance :)

Although its my birthday. But i didnt plan anything like party or whatever. I just wanna be with YOU.

Its just gonna be simple. Thats what i want. Less than 24hours i am gonna be officially 18 years old :DDD

Exam's over! :D

2010-11-19T15:59:00.009+08:00

Exam is over! Exam is OVER!!!!!! :D Yay finally. I dont feel stress anymore. I feel soooo free and released :)

But results, hmm... I dont know. I dont wanna think. Hopefully i can pass all my subjects :) Pray hard :)

I'll be going back ipoh on monday for 2 weeks, until 4th of dec. Then 5th of dec going Bali until 10th of dec. Then 3rd sem starting. I'm skipping the first week for 3rd sem. :P

Dont know what to type d. I only know i miss YOU so much. :) I'm going back to see you :) Cant wait to see you. Imy.

10 more days

2010-11-16T21:41:00.009+08:00

I sat for BCP paper today. It wasnt that good. I dont really know how to do. Yesterday was accounts paper. That was okay. Coming thursday last paper also the toughest paper, economics. I just hate econs >.<

10 more days from today. I will be in ipoh. I wonder where will i be. Home? Hopefully not. Depends on YOU.

2 more hours will be 17th. Sorry i didnt go back. I cant go back. Its wednesday and i have exam on thursday. I needa study. But seriously i am very very very no confidence. Just fuck it la. I am ready to fail. If i can pass, i am very lucky. If i fail, as expected. Aih..

Btw, i bought slippers for my lil bro as birthday present. And chocolate too. I sayang my bro :)

Anyway, goodnight babee. Imy.

Birthday gift :)

2010-11-13T13:09:00.013+08:00

Daddy bought me a Burberry handbag for my birthday as i requested. :P I went Pavillion yesterday when suddenly daddy texted me asking where am i, wanna go get my stuff or not after my english exam paper. Of course i want :P

Went brunch with xian, kim and cl. Went pavillion with them and also vivian but without kim cause she's going back ipoh. I only want 1 person to follow me cause i'm not sure the way, but then all of them followed. Its okay, they are not too big size, swift can fit. LOL

In picture the blue stripes are very obvious, but its not actually. Lol. Its like dark blue :)

Mum's :)

A very cute phone lanyard :) I love this. Really small and cute.

Daddy bought 2 handbags at a time and a phone lanyard for me. Thankyou daddy iloveyou :D It was actually for me only. But when we were there, mum and dad with me, mum saw that handbag saying nice nice, asking me to take that. But i wanted another one.
So daddy asking her: you want or not? I buy for you la.
Mum: Buy for me ar? No need la.
Me: Why not?
Dad: You want or not ar? Decide la i wanna pay already.
Mum: Okay la okay la.
Me: (i was like -.- at first say no need, but the heart wants! HAHA)

Daddy wont be around on my birthday :( He's going overseas. I'll wait for him to come back and have my birthday dinner together. :) But on my birthday i'm not going out with anyone except YOU.

And yes, i wont break a promise of myself. I want my 18th birthday only memories with YOU. So dont have to ask me out on that day, 26th of november, i wont go out. Before and after is okay :) I dont want any big huge grand or whatever celebration. Simple will do :)

I wont come out on that day if its for celebration. But still i needa go out to eat, FOOOOOD. Lol. 1 week after i will be going bali. I will get something for YOU sure :)

Thankyou daddy :)

Imy, mostlove.

Happy birthday to my bro!

2010-11-09T16:35:00.011+08:00

Firstly i would like to wish my younger brother a very

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY !

Secondly i wanna apologize to him cause i forgot it was his birthday until i reached home that day, they told me that there's a birthday dinner for him only i realized. His birthday is on 4th of Nov :P

I am very busy with my tuition cause finals is coming. I didnt even go out when i'm in ipoh, i just stayed at home for few days. :) Morning wake up early for tuition, at night tuition until 10pm. No time also. I have time also i'll go sleep :P

I love you bro ;) He always ask me to buy chocolate for him. His body size is now almost the same as my elder brother. He's getting fatter and 'bigger' in size. Lol.

I bought him this...

and this from indulgence :)

from my elder and his friend for him :)

i think he's happy :D although daddy not around.

Make a wish little boy. Happy birthday again ;)

November :)

2010-11-01T01:36:00.007+08:00

Its 1st of november today! :D and and its my birthday month :D

I want a lot a lot of things. I got a very long wish-to-buy list! :P

I wish it will be a good month. Hope everything goes well. I only want ONE thing as my birthday present. Only one please, only this. If i can get that, i dont want gucci burberry coach or whatever. If only you can give me that. Aih.. Its not possible.

Btw, i'm so stressed for finals. Like seriously stressed! My mood everyday is like fucked up. My temper is bad. I feel that i am forcing myself to study, study and study. I know i have to study, i know i got not enough time to study. I know i know!!! I'M TRYING TO STUDY LAAA! :(

17th of this month falls on wednesday and its the last day of my exam. I will be in kl thou. Then i'll be having 2weeks of holiday as sem break. Going bali on the 3rd week, which mean i'll skip 3rd semester first week.

I dont know what am i thinking. I just dont wanna think. I am tired :( Really really tired. Dont do something that hurts me, enough. I thought i dont care anymore. I thought i wont get jealous anymore. But i realized i still care so much, i will still get jealous, and UPSET. Haih.. I dont know how to let go. I just cant let go :(((

Imy,mostlove.

Desa Parkcity

2010-10-31T23:59:00.009+08:00

Kim kim is still very down. I drove her to sepang yesterday. Aih pity her.

Today i woke up kinda late :P Went brunch with zhu, chee leong and kim then went to Desa Parkcity. Its at, further than damansara a bit before kepong. Near Taman Bukit Maluri. Any idea where is it? Haha forget it.

I saw a lot people bringing their dogs for a walk! I wish yuki is here with me :( I will bring her also :(

I've been driving slow these 2days. I dont know why. Just dont feel like driving fast.

Btw, i went to One U last friday with kim xian and zhu to buy my formal. After buying formal, we walked around, i saw a watch which is damn nice! DAMN NICE really! I'm so in love with the watch now. I want it :) I miss the watch now. Lol.

I want the right one :)

Daddy texted me just now. And i reminded him that my birthday is coming and told him what i want :) Yay :D

I'm gonna start study tmrw. I have to. Dont let me keep fb-ing or something alright. If you see me onlining, ask me to go study :)

Goodnight people. Missing you as usual.

Presentations

2010-10-28T22:02:00.005+08:00

Accounts and Economics presentation is finally over! :DDD But there's one more English presentation on coming wednesday. I think it would be okay.

Finals is in only 2weeks time :((( I NEEDA STUDY seriously. I have to. If not i'll fail all my subjects. I really really dont wanna retake :(((

3rd sem is a short sem. I wanna finish it easily. I dont wanna retake!!! :(

Good luck for my coming presentation :)

I-city. Lol

2010-10-24T23:57:00.009+08:00

I went dinner @ Barbq Plaza in sunway pyramid with zhu, kim and xian. Its nice :) But its non halal. Hahaha. Too bad i cant bring malay friends. After that went for dessert in ss15 with them, named Hong Kong Dessert. Not bad not bad. Then suddenly i city came to my mind and i suggested to them, and yet we went. Lol :)

Barbq Plaza @ pyramid

The only pict in HK Dessert @ ss15

The cold room in i-city

I like this thingy :)

kim, me and xian

Thats all for that day :) I'm lazy to type more. Byee people ;)

20102010

2010-10-20T23:20:00.005+08:00

FML!!! Assignments is killing. Its stressing me out >.< I'm sooooooooooo freaking stress! Damn. It makes me feel like giving up.

Sometimes when i'm doing something that is stressing me, i will think of giving up like, 'fuck it la i'm not doing it anymore'. But still i will continue after that.

Its 20.10.2010 today. Nice number :) But its not a nice day.

I'm so tired. Everyday i got no enough sleep. Even sometimes when i am very tired, i lie down on the bed, i cant fall asleep. 1 or 2 hours on the bed turning and turning. FML!

When i am asleep, i dream a lot a lot. My brain cant stop functioning, cant rest even when i'm sleeping. Thinking and dreaming.

I'm not going back ipoh next week thou. Going back the following week. Hmm. Its gonna be my birthday month :) And yet finals is nearer! FML!

Lazy to think and blog d. Goodnight. Imy, most love.

First experience in life

2010-10-18T22:13:00.012+08:00

It was 17th yesterday. I went back to ipoh on last friday. I stayed at home and do my assignments and slept at 12smtg. :) So good girl right :P

Saturday night i went out with a friend the went to lush to meet a friend as well. Around 1am, i wanted to go toilet then wanna go back home already. But when i go toilet, the music stopped and i heard 'laki sebelah kiri, pompuan sebelah kanan, ic angkat keluar'. I was like WTH??? CHECK??? This is my first fucking time got checked in the club.

From 1am waited until around almost 2am, everyone there have to go to the police station to do the fucking urine test. -.- Lame enough. No choice, i have to go as well. My first experience going to the police station in my life to do whatever shit test -.-

I called my bro and told him. Lol. I'm not really scared cause i dont touch drugs, the only thing is i'm still underage. My birthday is on november. Lol. Went to the police station, a lot of friends were there also. Hahaha.

I'm not afraid that my parents will scold because they also know that i go club always and drink a bit. And sometimes go home late :P I called my dad and told him, he was like, 'ohh okay, anything tell me'. Then he sent me a text saying 'call mummy la, daddy is high'. Haha. I was like, fine i've already told my brother.

I was wearing shorts, t shirt and slippers, as usual. Lol. Waited there until 3smtg almost 4am, after testing my urine, i can go home d, like finally. Bro came to pick me and send me back to my car which is still near the club, then i went supper with my daddy :) Daddy was blur. Lol.

I saw her in front of the club. I never think to see her this time. But i saw her there. And the only time i saw her. Kinda screwed up. But whatever is it, its over :)

Assignments is annoying! I've a lot of things to do and i'm still relaxing. But i can do it on time :) I am chilling myself and not stressing too much. :) Have to study! Finals is in less than a month. I'm kinda worried about it. I dont wanna fail pleaseee :(

Byeee people.
Goodnight, imy.

Imy yet ihy

2010-10-13T22:08:00.017+08:00

I'm doing assignment. English group assignment. Its KILLING me. Dead bored seriously! Writing essay :(

There's accounting group assign, economics group assign and moral group assign some more. Finals is in 1 month time. I need to study. :( Soooooooooo many things to do, yet so little time.

I better pass every subject this sem. I DONT WANNA RETAKE!!! Then sem 3 would be free and easy. And its only a short semester :D

I cant think what to write already. Omg. Have to be 2000-2500 words. Luckily its group, not individual. If its individual, i can really die. How to write 2000 words for 1 essay. My head is going to burst. Lol.

There's now starbucks in my college! And also baskin robbin, wong kok, subway, face to face, oldtown soon, famous amos, and blabla. I dont remember. Lol.

This was taken in starbucks with my blur face. And thats shuba :)

These few days, my hand keep sweating like crazy. My hand is very warm and wet. Headache always as usual, and gastric suddenly. -.- I'm so tired of my body. Lol. I'm tryna chill myself and dont stress myself too much :)

I'm going to sleep soon. Imissyou yet ihy. Where are you? :( I'm thinking of you whenever i am free :( But not 24/7 i can say. Goodnight.

Congrats :D

2010-10-11T23:07:00.015+08:00

Nothing much to say. Its been a week since i last blog. I didnt go anywhere nor any special thing happen. So yea, nothing to blog.

But, CONGRATULATIONS to my dearest. They 'officially' couple up yesterday. Hahaha. 10.10.10. Nice one. Lol.

And and my baby Shuba has finally recovered from chicken pox and coming to college tmrw! Cant wait to see her! :DDD

These few days my mood was quite okay :) I always feel like i got no enough sleep. I am feeling sleepy again while i slept from 5smtg to 9smtg just now. But still i am feeling tired. :(

I'm kinda suprised that he texted me, but its for some reason. He just need my help, but sorry i couldnt help. I'll pray for her too. I think its fine thou. :)

I kinda had fun these few days. I'm happy :) When i think of ashraff calling rachel, i will automatically laugh. Lol.

我有很多话想跟你讲. 我想告诉你今天发生了什么事, 但是我又不想跟你讲话. 我知道很矛盾. 我想你, 我讨厌你, 我不想见你.

I still miss you even though i hate you.

When i lie down on the bed, i will think of you. I am thinking of you every sec. Sometimes when i am busy with something, i didnt think of you. You are somewhere inside my heart. But when i rest, stop, taking a break, you will come to my mind. I do miss you.

Goodnight loves.

Sanctuary

2010-10-05T18:52:00.005+08:00

I went to Murni @ Aman Suria after sending agnes off with them. Then a friend came to meet me there and we went Sanctuary after that.

Otw home, i was sitting at the back. His driving makes me vomitted so so so many times. Lol. Stop for dont know how many times only i can reach home. I was kinda tipsy, but i wasnt drunk. I can still talk properly, walk properly, look properly.

We drank beer, gas memang a lot. And it was fucking expensive! You know how much, rm190 for 2 bucket of Tiger ONLY arr! Damn. 10 bottles of Tiger for rm190. That means 1 bottle for rm19. You buy from 7e rm7.80 only. -.-

LCCT

2010-10-05T18:33:00.005+08:00

Agnes is in brisbane, australia now. :( I cant see her in ipoh every time i go back now :( She wont be around. I miss you :(

I went to LCCT to send her off. :( Saddening :( I MISS HER!

2days before she go aussie. We were in a club ;)

LCCT Marrybrown.

Her big brother.

My bbbbb :)

All of us.

It's hard to say goodbye.

2010-09-28T01:23:00.017+08:00

Its 1.26am now. I am supposed to be sleeping at this hour.

Over means its already over. There's no turning point. How i wish there will be a pause button in life. I would pause the moment when i was with you. I really do miss you. I really do..

When i try not to think, i tend to think even more. I feel like crying. But i dont wanna cry anymore. I can feel the pain, disappointment inside my heart. I really can feel it when i think of you.

I wonder, do you miss me? Did you think of me? Do you wanna see me? Or you're afraid to see me? I got a lot of question marks in my heart. I got a lot a lot of questions.

Baby how could you do that to me? Why would you wanna do that to me? Can you answer me? Can you give me an answer? To hurt me more, so that i will give up. To let me give up. Disappoint me more, so that i can forget about everything more easily.

I treat you with a real heart and i've been given a shit? If you come back to me now, i guess i'll kick you off. Or maybe i'll say 'nevermind, its okay'. But it hurts me deeply inside. I dont know, i really dont know..

Dont ask me to think. I cant think of a shit now. My mind is white with pictures of you, our short memories. Everything happens in a really very short time, less than a month. Now, everything is like no more, gone.

I go into your fb like 50times a day. Maybe more or less than that. I dont know. When i think of you, i click in. Its the same thing. But i dont know why am i going in to your profile. Yea, to hurt myself more by seeing all those stuff in it.

I'm sorry i cried. I'm trying to hold my tears. I returned the r is because i'm trying to forget. No point keeping it if its meaningless. I guess you would want it back too. And i've up side down the stone. But every time i saw the stone, even its without your name, i will still think of you.

Baby, is everything a lie? Every text is only words? No feelings in it? Yes i guess. I hope you're happy with her. As long you're happy.

I saw you today was like a few seconds, a blink of eye. That's all. I cant see your face, but i can still recognize that's you. If i'm not mistaken, you were in a black t or some dark colour t. How was your exam? Goodluck for the rest papers.

I think its time for me to sleep now. Goodnight & goodbye as well.

Babyboy, i really do miss you a lot.
1.56am

Out of no where

2010-09-26T22:52:00.009+08:00

I dont feel like going for family trip this year. I was doing assignment the whole day today, economics and business computing. I was too bored just now, i went into your profile and view your pictures. And i saw the pictures of your car accident.

This suddenly reminds me of how terrible was your car accident. It happened last year when i went for my family trip. I got a text from you saying you had an accident. I was in hong kong that time. And i cant do anything because i wasnt in malaysia.

Now, i dont feel like going anywhere. I wanna stay here. I dont wanna go far away from you. I am afraid the same thing will happen again. I fucking DONT WANT that to happen to you again. Please God. Thankyou.

I hope God would have read this and bless you. Please.

Shocked

2010-09-24T01:34:00.006+08:00

I got to know something which really shocked me. But i am fine people. I am REALLY REALLY fine. No worries. :)

I'm stronger than last time i guess. I gotta be stronger. I have to continue life. I am fine :)

Babee i will change. I promise i will change. I wont be like how i used to be last time. If you read this, I PROMISE YOU with my words. Which everybody can see.

I'm not gonna do anything to hurt myself even i am sad or unhappy. After all this things happened, i realize i am more mature compared to 1 year ago.

If it happened in a year ago, i guess i wont be sitting here typing, blogging with a smiley face. I guess i'll be crying under my blanket and throwing my temper, hurting myself. BUT i didnt do anything this time.

When i got to know, i was like 'okay, i know i have to let go now'.

He doesnt worth my tears, my love, my time, my everything. He dont deserve it i guess. Whatever, i still take you as my friend. Dont too over limit. Friends are still friends. Past are the past. Forget it. Continue life. There's up and down in life.

Goodnight. Love no more.

Husky

2010-09-20T23:39:00.017+08:00

Keep snapping pictures while i was holding the puppy husky, so not that nice. But still i like :D Her name is dong dong.

Current fb profile pict.

I like this one :)

HUSKY! Its so freaking cuuuuuuuuuuuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee right!!!

I ask my friend to buy for me as birthday present. Hahaha. Just kidding. Too expensive. Dont buy :)

I got a lot a lot of birthday present i wanna ask from my parents. I dont want Gucci stuff already other than the perfume cause i have the purse already. I want a Burberry handbag, i want a Coach sling bag, i want a Birkenstock slippers, i want a husky :P And i saw a Coach watch today. NICE!!! I wanna try Gucci's new perfume, Gucci Guilty. If its nice i wanna buy. Iphone 4 i'm not really into it. Haha.

The 2 most expensive stuff i'm gonna ask from my parents :D I got a lot a lot of 'wish to buy' stuff. I think my list is damn longgggggg. Haha. If i get all, i will be happy until i die wey. I will be laughing nonstop. LOL. You see me with my mouth open. Hahaha. I still got a lot of things that i want. I have to recall recall. Cant remember now. Lol.

Dream first. And wait for my birthday :D

Actually i want the most is you. If i can get you, i would rather dont get any of the one i mentioned above. I would trade that to have you.

Goodnight love. I.Miss.You.&.I.Love.You.

Birthday party @ Fairway

2010-09-20T23:38:00.008+08:00

Once again Happy birthday to Nicole and KarYee. I went to their party @ Fairway, Golf Club in ipoh.

Pictures do the talking ~

Silver

Yanny

Nikcles & Kit

Carmen

Nicole, birthday girl.

Kaka

KarYee, birthday girl as well.

Chee Wai

Darren. He has the same birthday with me :)

Marcus & Kit

Group photo

Party ends at 3am. Sent Kit home, then i went to mcd drive thru to tapau for my lil brother. Imma good sister :D

Happy bday nicole and karyee

2010-09-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Nicole and her sister Kar Yee!

Hope y'all enjoy party, I enjoyed.

Thanks a lot ;)

Its 17th today

2010-09-17T21:32:00.005+08:00

Its 17th today!
17/9/10

Too bad im at home :(

I'm going out later. I wanna ... so i have to go out. I am tired thou.

I dyed my hair yesterday. My hair was blonde, then i dyed it light black, so its now brown. I'm not used to see my hair sooooo dark colour. Seriously. Its weird.

I went out last night, the camera keep chik chak chik chak. Took more than 200 pictures in 1 night. Its all in my iphone, but i got no time to see them yet. I'll see it later when i'm free and i'll upload it! :D

I look younger i guess? Which i dont like. But still okay la. Not so bad.

I went facial today. Fucking pain! Mother! Hahaha.

3.16am. I'm tired hungry gastric blank empty. I am missing you. Its 18/9 now. not 17 anymore. Wait for the next month.

Goodnight loves.. Imy..

Beach Party @ Lost World, Ipoh Sunway.

2010-09-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

This was on 15/9/10. I slept for only 3 hours the night before after i city, went class and drove back ipoh. Reached ipoh, shower and dinner, then went out again.

Beach party @ ipoh sunway lost world.

Look at the crowd, the people.

My name :D Still got others but i cannot upload it :)

I brought a sling bag. So i in charge to keep their iphones and purse. I think my bag cost more than 10k that time. All iphones, all gucci, and blabla. Scary man.

Party ended around 3am, went to change and shower. Supper @ greentown salem with silver, carmen, nicole and a girl. After that we went back. I wasnt driving that night. Luckily i didnt drive. Cause no parking.

Reached home around 4.30am. DAMN TIRED already. Not enough sleep the night before, and drive back ipoh some more, and went party. How great i am :P

I'm sorry. I didnt mean it.

I-city again and again.

2010-09-17T21:01:00.004+08:00

Post for 14.9.10. I went i city again that night around 2.45am. Hahaha. Damn early right :P

Kenny and me.

We went i city 2.45 in the morning and went back around 3.15am. They're closing at 3am. I slept for 3hours and went class the other day.

逃避

2010-09-14T20:44:00.010+08:00

每一次我遇到什么事情, 我都在逃避. 我学习去面对, 但是每次都失败. 我每做一样东西, 都是一样失败. 我没曾做过一些成功的事情.

我有很多东西想说出来, 可是我想不到写些什么. 因为华语真的很难打. LOL

我不想再逃避, 我会学习面对 :)

I'm so tired of crying. I dont wanna cry anymore :) I wanna be more tough. I dont wanna cry like a kid anymore. Big girls dont cry :)

I got a lot to tell, but i couldnt type it all out. I dont know what to type. My mind is blank.

Btw, i'm going back ipoh tmrw. I can have a short break in ipoh. But i dont feel like going home. I wanna stay outside, somewhere else. Where can i go :/

Chill la Julia. Everything's gonna be fine :)

Babyboy, i.do.miss.you. But sometimes, its hard for me, i dont know la. Whatever.. Goodnight love.

Player? Sorry I'm not

2010-09-13T20:44:00.009+08:00

Get up at 7am today and went class. Fucking day didnt sleep wey. More than 27hours i didnt sleep. I am tired now but i feel like i cant sleep. I dont know why.

I am soooooooooooooo down today. I am really down. I dont know why. Is just, i feel down, i didnt talk much, i didnt smile much. Or maybe because i am tired.

I was laughing only when i listen back the recordings in red box, is FUCKING FUCKING funny. I cant let somebody else get the recordings. Its damn EMBARRASSING seriously! I am laughing at my own voice. Haha.

Btw, Shuba, Reena, Farris, Veshinu, Rash and Prakash came to my house just now to do the BCP video assignment. It was funny. Haha. There's kinda lot videos, like 20. But i'm lazy to upload, so i'm not gonna upload. Hehe.

I need sleep, i need rest. I need time. For my everything, to heal my heart as well. I want a good sleep tonight. A sweet dream tonight. A happy dream will do.

And and, a lil info, I AM NOT A PLAYER OKAY. If you wanna play, you should go get some player, but not me. I am weak, i cant stand the pain.

Maybe i look a bit playful or something, but so sorry i disappoint you. I am not a player. You got the wrong person. I dont take those as a game. I take it serious.

I dont need players in my life. My world is not a playground. Thats what i wanna say.

When you dont feel your heart anymore, you dont know what can you do anymore. You cant even think of a single thing. But now my brain start to turn again, i am so fine. I dont need anyone to continue my life. I can live by myself.

I do miss you, i do think of you, but its part of my life. I dont wanna take it as number one anymore. I wont anymore hopefully.

I am now tough enough to stand up again :)

Red box

2010-09-13T20:07:00.009+08:00

I slept from 5am until 6pm i woke up. Then went dinner with zhu and kenny @ ss15 station one. After dinner we went Red Box in pyramid. Around 8.30pm.

Was supposed until 12.30am. But then i dont know why we can stay until 2.30am. They didnt cut, so we stay. Hahaha. Damn embarrassing right. Hahaha.

Pictures ~

Reached home around 3am, i stayed up until 4smtg then went to bed. I didnt sleep, i was just resting cause i know if i sleep, i will be definitely skipping class. So i didnt sleep the whole night and get up for class the other morning :) Good girl right. :D

I-city again :)

2010-09-13T15:46:00.007+08:00

Sorry a late post. It was 10/9/10. I went I-city with zhu, brandon and ethan around 12am after yamcha @ AC. I drove and ethan drove.

The lighting over there damn nice.

I like this the most among the others. I like this colour combination.

Brandon, me and ethan

Zhu and me :D

Brandon

We went gasoline to chill. Its hot, and i was sweating.

I like this one

We went back around 2.30am. It'll be the first and also the last.

I-city

2010-09-06T00:05:00.007+08:00

I went I-city, Shah Alam last night, around 12.15am with Kahhei. I was kinda emo and thinking of something, i feel like driving. Then suddenly Kahhei suggested to go i-city. So we went :) Its sooooooooooooo nice the lighting over there :)

I like this pict.

Its only about 15mins to reach there by federal highway. Erm toll only 2bucks, 2way :) I'll go there again this wednesday or thursday night. Anybody wants to follow? :)

Otw back that night, there's an asshole wanna race with me. Fuck off sucker :P

Happy birthday to Silver ❤

2010-08-31T22:09:00.014+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABEE SILVER :D

Today is 31st of august, its merdeka and its also Silver's birthday. We celebrated her birthday in Syuen Hotel on 30th of august. Supposed to be countdown merdeka, but we countdown her birthday :) POOL PARTY!

They took a lot a lot of picts. But not with me. So i'll just post a few pict from my phone :)

I bought her a custom made brownies with cherries, strawberries and gummy bears, and her name on it. I bought it la okay. I dont know how to make it. :P

The super duper nice pool :)

Zhu & me

Party is on! :D

Party at night, but its raining. She's a bit moody cause of the weather. :( They're crazy! They throw everyone into the pool. When i refuse, they carried me and throw me in. Scary but fun :)

12am, they countdown for her birthday with a doggie icing cake. Its full of icing, and they play with it. Lol. I think that's the purpose for buying that cake.

Some of them is inside the pool gaming, dancing, having fun. Some is inside the room chilling, drinking, smoking. There's around 40 of us. Quite a lot.

When its getting later and later, they're leaving one by one. I was sitting next to pool looking at them and helped them to take picts. I changed my clothes and all, they still throw me in the pool. I was all wet. Ggrrr! I got no more extra clothes :(

2am, 3am, 4am, 5am in the morning, sitting next to the pool, being thrown in the pool, drinking inside the pool with a bunch of friends, is some kind of enjoyment. Standing inside the pool in the morning is FREEZING COLD! My body, legs, hands and fingers were shivering. Gosh. Even sitting next to the pool with a towel is still damn cold. Its in the morning okay. The night before just rained, wind blowing and the pool is open air.

Around 5.30am, we went out to eat dim sum. After dim sum, those who wanna go home, went back. I went back to hotel cause i dont wanna go home. I argued with my parents. They scolded me like a dog :( I was crying. I'm sorry silver i cried when your party is on :( I'm so sorry :(

I enjoyed the most that night was i jumped into the pool myself. I feel so released. I dont know how to swim, i am phobia, i am scared, but still i jumped in myself. Its not the first time thou. I am just so stressed. I wanted to sit inside the pool, but the pressure is pushing me up. I'm sorry to those who is worried :(

Once again, happy birthday silver :)

Party people

2010-08-28T02:06:00.004+08:00

Party party, people! :)

Ridza, Veshinu
Me, Brandon

Full moon! *loves loves* I realized i love to take pict of the moon.

The awesome pool and environment!

Drinking game, with shots. Can die wey.

Vesh, Brandon.

We went to Ridza's place. To chill chill. :) I enjoyed, i had fun. I miss the night :( I wish time will stop by then. :(

I just miss it :(

I miss the moment when i was sitting alone next to the pool, wind blowing, thinking of something, feel the wind, feel my heart, feel COLD! Lol. Suddenly i saw a shadow, then he sat beside me.

I am confused :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

突然有种心痛的感觉

Friendship

2010-08-25T22:52:00.012+08:00

I kinda like these words in the pict :)

I think this is how i think that's why i am still single now. Lol.
I don't mind being single, and i enjoy being single. Don't have to think so much, don't have to care so much. I have my freedom to do anything i want, i like, i love. Isn't that good? :)

But sometimes i miss the feeling of being loved and care by the one you love and the one who loves you so much. I miss that. Seriously.

Still the same, let things go naturally. That's what i always think. :) And yea, whatever. Lol.
Something happened today. I got no comment, i don't wanna care, i don't wanna know. I've no idea what's really going on, and i don't really wanna know. Don't have to tell me. :) Forget about it. :)

I'm doing my damn assignments now. DAMN. It's so annoying!!! Account individual assignment due is next week. English group proposal due is next week. Business computing portfolio is individual, and economics individual assignment is coming up.
I'm going back ipoh tmmr or fri, so i have to finish it because i'm not gonna touch my work when i'm in ipoh. I'm so bored and tired of assignments :( I JUST HATE IT!

I'm lazy to drive back ipoh, but i think my bro is following me back :) He can drive for me :)

This picture is specially for someone :)

Especially your eyesssss!

Ciao people, goodnight.

Juicy :)

2010-08-23T00:45:00.002+08:00

I'm kinda lazy to update my blog cause i didnt transfer picts from my iphone yet. Later la. Mafan la. Lol. :)

Is this nice? I think the colour is special. :) I found it online :)

2.3 :D

2010-08-16T20:11:00.009+08:00

I freaking hate 8am classes :((( So damn early :(((

Is just a random post today. Because i camwhore a bit today, thats why i blog with those pictures with my lesbo baby. Lol.

In the toilet :) Shuba.

In the class.

In the lecture hall. Nonstop eating. Haha.

Sour ribbon! Nice nice :D The colourful one.

It wasnt so good today. Hmm. Idk why. But maybe i know, but still i wont post it here thou.

Babee's coming back tonight :DDD

Please stop it.

2010-08-15T23:06:00.005+08:00

I DON'T WANNA KNOW PLEASE!
STOP PLEASE!
ITS HURTING, ITS ANNOYING. ITS IRRITATING!!!

Did you ever think of me? Think of how i feel?

People, think of people around you. There's not only you in the world.

I am trying to bear with everything every word now. I am not saying anything at the moment. Because we are friends. But if it hurts more, I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHO THE HELL YOU ARE.

Y'all are just soooooooooooooooooo annoying. I dont wanna see y'all anymore. I'll leave.

HURT ENOUGH!

Inception

2010-08-15T01:51:00.007+08:00

I woke up around around 2pm. Haha. I was at home alone so i texted vincent and asked him for dinner. He was kinda emo and got nothing to do. So we went out :) He came pick me and we went for brunch @ lunch box near sunway college.

After that, i suggested to go Mid Valley cause i wanna go to the online baazar there :) At first i couldnt find the baazar. Lol. I bought a skirt in Zara :) Finally i found the online baazar. Hee. I bought a shirt from there.

We left Mid Valley around 7pm and went dinner @ puchong ac. Lol. Yea there's an ac there. After dinner we went for movie in IOI Mall. Inception at 8.45pm. I dont really understand. Its confusing. Haha. Movie ended around 11.15pm. Have to fucking pay the parking ticket and queued damn long. -.-

I was so damn tired, and so he was. Hahahaha. Luckily i wasnt driving :P He sent me back after that. :)

Me and Vincent, but i call him xian :)

See where he parked.

Otw back homeeee :)

Acting cool? LOL

I left my new skirt and new shirt in his car :((( I forgot to take when i go down the car. Gonna get it back tmmr :)

USJ 16

2010-08-15T01:31:00.005+08:00

I went to meet Joel, Veshinu and Brandon in shisha there, lepak lepak. After that, we went to Joshua's place, chill chill. Ridza and a few girls left earlier. Then Farris and Saanesh came around 1am.

Joel and Veshinu.

Brandon.

Joshua the right one.

Farris in pink, Saanesh in blue.

He was kinda tipsy. Look at his face. Lol.

Vesh was totally KO! Haha.

Tony Roma's

2010-08-11T22:11:00.011+08:00

Today is the first day of ramadhan. I got a lot a lot of malay friends. I went dinner with some of them today! They fast for one whole day. I buka puasa with them after class. Hehe.

We went to Tony Roma's @ pyramid around 7pm. Our class actually ended at 6pm, cause of the jam we cant leave! :( So we stayed until 7smtg only we left. Farris, Syuhada, Reena, Zeema and me :D

Our food. FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD ! Lol.

Reena, Farris, Zeema, Me and Syu.

Reena.

Zeema.

Zeema and Syu.

The bill. Haha.

All of us enjoyed a lot. Thanks to Farris the most :P He paid HALF of the bill. Lol. But, too bad not all of our gang were there. Waiting for the next time. :)

We should hang out more often :D I mean all of us, Farris, Shuba, Reena, Rach, Ashraff, Syu, and so on. 2.3 rocks! :D

Sshhhh -.-

2010-08-08T02:57:00.006+08:00

Damn. I dont know what can i say anymore. I got no eyes see! I dont wanna see anymore. I dont wanna know. Dont let me know. Sometimes thing shouldnt be known is better than you know. At least it doesnt hurt. Some stuff are better to be in silence. Dont have to tell everyone.

I hate the way it hurts. I HATE YOU THE MOST!

I dont wanna know please. Dont tell me, dont let me know, try to make people shut up and stop letting me know.

Whatever laaaaaaaaaaa! I'm sick of you guys. One and another. Continue and continue. F.

FML and F you people. Can you guys just stop? Do you want me to leave only you'll stop?

Happy birthday to Angelyne & HKL

2010-08-03T18:11:00.010+08:00

Happy 20th birthday to my babe!
Angelyne

Its her birthday today, 3rd of august. She's turning 20 today.
Wish her all the best in her studies and future. Especially family.
I love you babe. ;)
Anything you want that i could give? Let me know :)

Happy birthday to HKL too.
He's turning 20 as well. ;)

They celebrated their birthday in Milk, Bangsar. I'm so sorry i couldn't attend. Cause it was after my work, i was damn tired. My leg hurts, i dont wanna drive anymore. SORRRAYYYY!

left is HKL, right is Angelyne ;)

Go away problems

2010-08-03T18:10:00.011+08:00

I seriously hate PROBLEMS!!! Its freaking annoying. I'm already sad. And problems coming nonstop. Its ANNNOOOOYYIIIIIIIIIINNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

Can you guys like be more mature and independent? Dont la so sensitive. Duhh. I got nothing to say, i got no comment. Its was just a simple thing, and you all can make it like a BIG PROBLEM like the sky's gonna fall. -.-

About what, i'm not gonna say it here. But just, dont annoy me with those freaking small thingy. i hate it. Makes me feel, annoyed? fake? dramatic? Whatever shit is it.

I dont wanna know, and i dont wanna see. Just, whatever la. Damn it.

FUCK OFF people. I hate people like that.

That's all i can say about it. I've cried enough. I've enough stories. That's it. And shut up, dont ask me about this. Just whatever la. Leave it. I dont like to explain. And i dont listen to explanation as well.

So if you did something wrong, even you explain 100 times to me, i will be like 'okay'. But it depends on how much trust you've given me before. But still, i dont like explanation. Or i explain something to you. As long i know i'm right, you can say whatever you want, and i wont explain much about myself. I trust people with my eyes and feeling, not by your words.

LEX

2010-07-31T23:45:00.005+08:00

It was my first job in my life. Stand for 5hours without sitting at all in LEX, Empire Shopping Gallery. My leg HURTS! I was only wearing slippers. I havent get the pay yet, it will be rm55. :)

Vincent, Kahhei and me :)

We were having break time when we took all these pictures.

Kahhei and Kim.

Me, Kahhei and Kim.

It was very very very tiring. But i never regret going cause i met her there. SHE IS PERFECT!!! seriously, PERFECT! :DDD

i work from 12 -3pm, then 5 - 7pm. I saw her walking around there. Gosh! I'm gonna faint. And and she touched my hand! AAHHHHHHH! I'm gonna die! She look so tired man :( She talk to me a lot too :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

AHH! I just miss her so so so much now! I will go there again just to see her! :DDD

MAD, MOS

2010-07-31T23:24:00.006+08:00

The charity SUCKS! It was boring, stuffy, tiring, lame, stupid. Lol. Those who went, its a waste of money. But since its for charity, still okay la.

A small boy screaming inside MOS. I was like, WTH??!!! KIDS?!!

Its dark. So its not clear.

We left around 11pm. 11pm you know. 11pm should be start partying, but the charity ends at 10.30pm, then everyone gotta go out. There's too many underage. They were more strict that night. If you wanna go in again, you have to show IC. A lot of them still underage included me. So they dont wanna go in, no fun only both of us.

So we didnt drink AT ALL in mos for few hours, only water and coke. wth right. Farris suggested to go AC and drink. I was wearing a dress and heels la please. Lol. Go AC? NO WAY! So, we went 7e and bought beer and went back home and drink. Me, Kahhei and Farris. Lol.

The charity thingy tag. Mine was actually yellow for those who's underage, but i changed it :P

That's all. It wasnt nice i can say.

Pictures of Pav

2010-07-29T12:30:00.004+08:00

My pretty ladies :D

Farris

My Babi no.2. Shuba. :)

Shuba, Reena.

My Baby! :DDD The white one.

Reena, Rach, Farris, Me, and Shuba :) I look short in the pict.

Pav with awesome people

2010-07-28T23:43:00.008+08:00

Today's lecture until 12pm. I went to pavilion with my awesome people, farris, shuba, reena, and rach. But it wasnt that awesome today. Me and farris driving. Idk the way so i was following behind me.

I tell you, his leading today SUCKS! arghhhhhhh! Made me so bengang. Shuba in the car was like, chill la julia chill chill. He wasnt waiting for me after the toll. FINE. Then the way back, even worse! I feel like slapping him wey. Lol.

We camwhore in the car :D We makan, jalan, lepak in pav. We took some pictures. I'll post some of it when i get it :) We went to lot 10 and sungei wang as well. The lala world. Lol.

After i sent them back to college, pravin called then i waited for them to come take their futsal ball. Waiting and waiting, my brain keep turning, then i started crying in the car. MY HEART IS PAINFUL!

Veshinu saw, kept asking am i okay. Then we went yamcha @ carrefour. With vesh, joel and pravin. I'm tired. Obviously i cried because of something la right. I wont like suddenly crying nonstop with no reasons.

I dont wanna see her anymore please but i know its impossible. I REALLY DONT WANNA SEE HER. I feel the pain everytime i saw her. I saw her, i'll think of it, then i'll start emo. But i dont want that laaaaaaaaaaa! :( I dont wanna be emo, i dont wanna be sad.

I'm really tired of everything. I wanna stop everything. I'm trying not to care, not to know, pretending like i cant see, i dont know. WhatTheFuck you still want from me????!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please, just let me go.

I just wanna be happy and fine so that i can concentrate on my studies. Its 2nd sem la. I dont wanna fail any subject.

Babi, i miss you. Goodnight..

First day of 2nd sem

2010-07-27T00:24:00.007+08:00

Erm. I went to college today around 8.30am. I'm earlier today! Haha. I could wake up :D I met Reena then i picked her and we waited for shuba in Norwegian. Wait and wait, and finally she came. She slimmed down.

We're planning to go pyramid, waiting for Farris as well. Lol. He's not feeling well. We went pyramid around 10.30am. I misssssssssssssss them so so so much! Finally i can see them all together once again :D AWESOME PEOPLE GATHERING!

When we're back to college, we saw a lot of our classmates, all asking about results -.- Rachel, Ashraff, Aiman, Mandy, Shawn, Peek Chin, Elden and so on.. Ziema is still in Brunei i guess. I just miss semester 1 so much. :(

We're now all like going apart. :( WHY! I dont want that :( I want us to be like last time, go everywhere together, do things together, lepak together, makan together, laugh together, have fun together, and go class together! I really miss it :(

People, sem2 is gonna be tougher. We have to do well. We'll work together :) and and thankyou Syuhada for the cookie today. Its nice :D

2nd sem

2010-07-25T23:05:00.002+08:00

College starting tmr! 2nd sem! Yay. Life's back. No more boring life, sleep and eat and GAINED WEIGHT. Wtf.

Btw, i changed my blog layout and colour. It is okay? :) I spent 2hours on it. Lol.

I've printed out my new timetable. FUCK moral education. Friday's class until 5pm wey. How am i gonna go back to ipoh on fri. Have to wait until at least 5pm. -.- I'll skip a lot i guess. I've got no choice :S

See you guys in coll tmr :D

MOS, 22/7

2010-07-23T22:02:00.012+08:00

Went out with farris. went to Bukit Jalil, Omega. and met some new friends there. Hannah, Jacob, Saanish, and ...

We went to MOS after Omega. lol.

a remembrance night...

Cameron, 15/7

2010-07-23T22:02:00.004+08:00

i went cameron with my family on thursday, 15/7/10. its a day trip. :) im lazy to blog la. pictures will do the talking.

stop at one of the shop middle of the hill for toilet and change driver cause i was driving mum's car before that. :D

BOH tea session.

Gunung Brinchang. damn cold wey. i still felt cold and shivering even im wearing a leather jacket.

at the market.

on the way back with windows wind down thats why my hair so messy.

Quite a nice trip thou. :)

happy bday zhu

2010-07-19T03:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ZHUUUUUUUUUUUUU! :D

sorry a late post cause i got no time to blog.

late post

2010-07-16T01:20:00.004+08:00

actually i got quite a lot to blog but i cant transfer the picts from my phone to laptop cause i left the cable in subang house. damn stupid right. i'll blog about it later. hmm. there's a few.
~ shopping, Pav
~ shopping again, The Garden
~ cameron :D

btw, im going back subang tmr. if i got time i'll update tmr. if not then the other day. hee. where to go laaaaaaaaaaaaa i really dont know. where can i go?

im gonna sleep early tonight, i gotta drive back subang tmr. im kinda tired. i drove to cameron today :DDD

goodnight.

Pavilion

2010-07-10T22:09:00.009+08:00

i am freaking tired. :( i woke up around 11smtg this morning, get ready then went to pavilion. i used about 45mins to reach there, around 1.15pm. we shop and shop and shop until around 7smtg then went back home. otw home, i missed the junction back to subang, i took 1hour+ to go back home from kl. fucking long right. drive until i bengang and tired, jam some more. wasting petrol and time. reached home 8smtg. sigh.

i spent a lot today. imma broke. lol. haha. i spent 700+ on shopping. excluded makan, petrol, toll and etc etc. :((( i bought kinda lot of things. erm clothes, belt, jeans, and slippers. i love slippers! :D

i'm going back ipoh tmr. dont worry i still have $$$. haha. i know how to manage my money :) i'm having holiday. whee ~

anyway, i'll be coming back to subang on the coming fri. because its my zhu' birthday. i dont wanna leave her here alone so i come back for her :) going back ipoh on sunday. mum will be coming down to kl, she'll be staying in condo. im not gonna stay there. haha. freedom! :)

yes its me. hahaha zhu took it :P

we were in chocolate lounge in pav.

Finals over!

2010-07-10T00:40:00.008+08:00

My final's over! YAY HOLIDAY! monday was Accounting I, tuesday was Economics I, wednesday was English for College Studies, thursday was Business Mathematics and fri is the stupidest subj ever, Malaysian Studies.

hopefully i can pass every subject especially MS. i really dont wanna retake. damn malu wey. exam's over. yay yay. sem break for 2 weeks and i'm gonna start sem 2. sem 2 will be more difficult cause everything will be new. sem 1 is easier cause is still some basic of f4 and f5. i have to work harder :)

i went to The Gardens just now. i can't wait for tmr. i'm going SHOPPING tmr :DDD so long never buy clothes. i wanna go shopping so badly! cant wait for tmr :P i'm going pavilion with zhuuuu :) i think i'll be in kl for the whole day. i got a lot of plan and stuff to do when i go back ipoh for the 2weeks. :)))

i'll be missing my babes here, shuba, reena, rach, ziemah, ashraff, farris, aiman and ... for the 2weeks break. hope to see you guys next sem. i feel like we're going apart :( why? hmm. and also joel, veshinu, pravin, ...

i dont wanna say a thing here, its a little too public. hmm. anyway, i wish all the best for our results :D pray hard :P

goodnight people, ❤.

1.08am

我以为

2010-07-08T22:50:00.007+08:00

我以为我不会再理了, 我以为我真的可以放手了, 我以为我不再爱了不 . 因为一直以来我以为我们还有希望. 但是现在我知道 , 我们不可能 . 我要放手 , 可是当我想起一切, 我的泪掉了. 原来放手, 不是我想象中那么简单, 容易.

你让我爱过, 痛过, 足够了.

我见不到你 , 我想见你 . 我见到你 , 我不知如何面对你 . 现在一切都清楚了 , 我看清楚了 , 我想清楚了 .

我会放手了 . 我不会再抱希望了 . 我没事了 . :)

Surprisingly, i called someone which i never talk to for a long time, and he picked up my call :DDDDDDDDDD he cheered me up :) i feel like seeing him now, but he's in ipoh. anyway, thankyou :D

Finals

2010-07-05T19:50:00.005+08:00

yesterday studying accounts in the afternoon. after i did my first bank reconciliation question correctly, then i stopped studying already. haha.

night, i never even touch the notes because i went out with a friend for dinner around 9pm and chit chatting downstairs of my apartment from 10.30pm until 1.30am. damn nice. lol. after that back home and sleep. :D

the face of studying. i tied up my hair btw.

accounts is over! YAY! i think its okay. :) tmr is econs. i got no confidence at all for econs. i just want a pass please. :(

ALL THE BEST PEOPLE!

you broke my fucking heart!

2010-07-03T00:16:00.009+08:00

YOU FUCKING BROKE MY HEART! i just want you to leave me. stop everything. i dont want anything. i dont want you to care. I DONT WANT ANYTHING. I JUST WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME. thats it.

i want hug please. :'((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( im fucking alone at home now.

in the noon, i was okay until he told me where is he going. then i feel like, yea just go. i dont feel like seeing him. I DONT EVEN WANNA SEE HIM A MIN LONGER. i went to AC, cause i told shuba reena them i'll go. so yea, i went. and i ... . i cant stand it, i feel like i lost my heart, you smashed my heart. after i ... , i went home, i cried for nothing.

night, i was okay when i shisha with joel and vesh. i was kinda relax and cleared my mind when i was in tanjung. im not thinking of anything, just feeling tired. until i reached home, i saw, i ... again. i'm not okay now. im sorry to people who cares about me.

my exam is next week. i'm going to college to study in the morning tmr. i wish i can pass or get a better grade. goodnight people.

i think i'm fine. dont worry.

12.50am

F is ML

2010-06-30T21:25:00.004+08:00

i'm having gastric everyday now. especially night time. sigh. so long didn't gastric, started gastric last saturday, until today everyday gastric. mahai. pain like fuck. i can't even walk. i can only lie down to makes me feel better. medicine useless.

back to life. hmm. when you know someone is like leaving you or avoiding you or something, which is something you wish to, but its so fucking pain inside the heart. the pain in unbearable. you will cry out from the heart when you think of him everytime. its even worse than gastric pain. tears will automatically roll down your cheek with PAIN from the HEART. fucking sakit hati. sigh.

you couldn't do anything to help it. you can only feel him walking away from you, leaving you, add on something which is fucking pain, that was, you can see him and another girl being so close or whatever shit. ITS KILLING ME INSIDE.

i don't know how to express it out. that is why i ... and ... , the only thing i could do to make me feel a bit better? but everyone's scolding me for it. i'm sorry people, to people who really care for me. i got no one to talk to, idk how to tell, idk what to tell. if i could describe it in words, i would have told someone. i felt the pain, but idk how to tell.

babe, please stop hurting me.

i couldn't stand the pain. i rather its just gastric pain than heart broke.

FML, F is ML. You are ML.

simple will do

2010-06-25T00:44:00.005+08:00

The more you don't like, the more i'll do. sebab i tak sampai hati to leave you, so i'll make you leave me even though its hurting.

i just want a simple life, with a simple person, who really loves me, not fooling me and making use of me.

thats it.

thats what i want. as simple as that.

PD

2010-06-23T23:17:00.004+08:00

PD was awesome with friends. not PD awesome. lol. and we were staying in a very nice room. villa of avillion hotel. rm1500 for 1 night, but we shared. the villa is on the water, awesome sea view. the best thing to do is fag. lol.

pictures ~

lol. that's nicholas with his mac lappie.

angelyne and meeee :D

there's 3 beds, 2 balconies, 2 toilet, 1 living room. its big enough to fit all of us. :)

anyway, its a fun trip thou. :D

ipoh ipoh

2010-06-19T02:21:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel like so so so wanna go back ipoh now! :(((((((((((((((((((( but everyone's scolding me for it. sigh.

i really feel like going back. i can drive at night. i can. i really can. :(

my babee's is so unhappy. i wish to go back :( i'm sorry. i got plan tmr. but still i can go back. sigh. but its getting later already now. aih.

im going port dickson at 12pm tmr. if i go back at 1.30am just now, reaching ipoh should be around 3.30am. i can stay until 8-9am then back kl. rest and pack, go port dickson. i'll be driving also. ahh i should have leave just now. sigh sigh sigh. :(((((((((((((((((((

i'm worried :(

stress man!

2010-06-17T23:02:00.005+08:00

i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking stress! idk why. and i feel so down :(

can you guys please stop asking me about him. i don't wanna hear his name anymore. don't ask me where's xx. why you guys wanna ask me? just call him or text him la. what to do with me? i am julia, i am single, i am not with him. I AM FUCKING SINGLE.

i am so stress whenever i see him. i don't feel like seeing him, but i miss him. when i see him, i wanna go away from him. aih. i don't wanna stay close to him. I DON'T KNOW LAAA!

somehow, blogging does help me to release stress a little. but xx is much more easy to release stress. whatever la. i am still stress!

i'm so tired of everything. i wish to stop everything. i wanna go for a trip to relax and clear my mind. i wanna stop college. i want a long holiday. sigh. luckily i'm going port dickson this weekend. at least i can relax a little. we're so gonna drink there :D that's some kind of relaxing thou :DDD

goodnight people. i'll be fine.

down :(

2010-06-15T00:17:00.003+08:00

i'm kinda down these few days :(((((((((((((((((((((

I HATE YOU! i'm kinda missing him thou. sigh. i really dont wanna see you. i dont wanna go out, i dont wanna go college, i dont wanna go anywhere that i might see you. i just dont wanna see you. but i have to see you everyday.

i dont want this kind of feeling. the feeling of being dumped? guess so. when you need me, you come to me. when you dont need me, you disappeared. when i need you, I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU.

FUCK YOU MAN ! im tired of everything. i dont want anything. LEAVE me! just go away.

yusuf

2010-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YUSUF !

dont worry i'll get you birthday card. ;)

imy

2010-06-06T02:43:00.000+08:00

i.am.missing.you.now.
i.wanna.see.you.

Bits Of Life, JULIA ❤

Happy CNY, Dragon Year 2012.

November, holiday started :)

Happy birthday Silver ❤

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Thank you!

I hate my life.

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Worst day ever in 19years life :'(

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Singapore 29.4 - 1.5.11

明知道

Singapore in a week

思念比死还难受.

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Sorry

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你懂吗?

原以为我可以静静的，把你忘了。怎知道，看见了你，才知道我做不到。

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1217

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LEX

原以为我可以静静的，把你忘了。怎知道，看见了你，才知道
我做不到。